Worth It: How I Find the Motivation to Get to Bed on Time

I suck at mornings and I need motivation to get it together. I’m a mediocre sleeper and I’m awful at falling asleep so naturally mornings are not my jam. I’ve struggled with mornings my whole life. My mother’s favorite anecdote about High School Emily is that she could wake me up at 7:30 and I was at the school, make up done and showered, by 7:45 (in all fairness we lived about two minutes away from the school). 

My Morning Motivation Problem

I’ve carried this hatred for mornings my whole life. It is the Monday to my Garfield. I’ve flirted with being a morning person off and on for years. I’m usually really good at it after we “Spring Forward” the clocks (I know that makes no sense but Brenton can back me up on this, apparently I’m good at losing two hours) but I struggle to keep it up. I’ve tried everything to be better at sleep. Chamomile tea, lavender oil, sleep sprays, no phones before bed, a steady bedtime routine, and bedtime lotions. I’ve read books about sleep. I’ve tried CBD gummies. I meditate. I did all the right things and still even as recently as last week I was skipping my morning routine for extra sleep. 

The most successful thing I’ve tried (prior to last week) was having Brenton wake me up and drag me from the bed Freaky Friday style. Unfortunately, he is much too kind of a human to actually pull me from bed and my sad pleas to sleep in or negotiations to go to the gym that night always won. Recently, it got to the point where I was skipping the gym just to stay in bed (for more than my healthy 8-9 hours). This lack of morning routine set my days up for failure because I never fully woke up or got my post workout endorphin high that let me take on the day. It put me in a negative mental spiral where I decided that I was doomed to suck at mornings and would never get back in the habit of mornings. It got dark and I got annoyed.

What Changed and Gave Me Motivation?

So after all this drama, self hatred, and frustration around sleep what finally did it for me? My drama was too much for me. I decided I was worth getting up and having a healthy workout, walk my dog, drink coffee (or tea) with Brenton, and get my head on straight before I started the day. In other words, I decided I was worth it. I decided I was worth giving myself unconditional love by taking care of myself in the morning before I went in to work to take care of others. I decided I was worth it. And honestly, it worked. 

Will the Motivation Last?

Now I’m not saying I won’t ever sleep in again (especially when I need that rest or I’m sick) but I am saying the mind is our most powerful tool. Did I want to sleep in today? Absolutely! Did I get up and go to the gym anyways? Yes, because I’m worth it. “I’m worth it” is now my morning negative thought pattern interrupter. Every time I doubt my ability to get up and start the day or every time I debate asking Brenton if he can walk Herman alone so I can sleep in I grumble – no, because I’m worth it and I get up and do the damn thing. 

Now I’m applying this to everything I do. Will this work forever? Only time will tell. But does it work for now? Yes, because I’m worth it.