I’m going to be 110% honest, I have had zero motivation for the last week. As a self-proclaimed lover of fresh starts I have gone into this New Year on a more subdued note than usual. Instead of beating myself up about it, I spent a little time reflecting on 2019 and I came to the conclusion that 2019 was a happy little storm of chaos and I know I’m not the only one feeling this way.
Somehow 2019 managed to have the highest of highs (Disneyland, moving, promotions, growing this community, Herman settling in, sweet moments with dear friends) and some low lows (family members being sick, the loss of Brenton’s grandma, anxiety, generalized confusion on how to adult, the whole political climate, the fact that we are LITERALLY killing our planet). This year had the making of a perfect season of a teen drama but unlike Gossip Girl I couldn’t turn it off when the plot started to sink.
Yet, somehow, by the grace of our own strengths, we all made it.
When I started 2019, bright eyed and bushy tailed, I set myself the following intentions:
- Be patient with myself and others (done)
- Shush my chronic imposter syndrome (she could be quieter but we’re improving)
- Continue self care through movement, good food, meditation, and general health (done)
- Continue writing and sharing (done)
- Learn conversational spanish (my Duolingo Owl thinks I am a lost cause)
While I may have failed at learning Spanish I’m proud of how well I did on the rest of my 2019 intentions. Not only did I reach my goals but I had fiction and non-fiction published, I bought this blog domain so I could monetize it, I doubled my social media following for the blog (check it out here if you aren’t following along already), and I built my confidence to an unrecognizable state.
I’m so proud of me! Which means this year I can update my intentions to encompass even more of the woman I want to be (and already am inside). Are we ready? My 2020 intentions are:
- To live an authentic life by honoring my whole self and prioritizing my wellbeing
- Keep building my blog, social media, podcasts, and writing projects
- Stay grounded in the chaos of the world
- *Keep at my Duolingo to get my Spanish up and running again
So how am I going to do it? First, I always set intentions instead of resolutions because they leave room for human error, off days, and they help this former perfectionist sleep better. Then, I usually break down my intentions month by month and pick a few things to focus on. As we ease our way into January I’m focusing on the top half of the list and being selfish with my time by putting all my energy into my side projects. Brenton and I have already launched a Veronica Mars rewatch podcast called Life on Mars and we are working on another one about conspiracy theories called But Really Though. I’ll continue being active on here, on my instagram, and twitter. As always, I’ll be in the gym 5 days a week and working my way through YWA January Yoga Journey.
I’m excited for my 2020 adventure and after 2019 I’m hanging on tight. I’m sure it will only get crazier from here.
Happy New Year!